2008-2009
Relishby Margaret PopeTaste a cloud,
Furiousby Bennet RoperTouch my rage,
Never Forgottenby Abbey HolsmanTouch a memory:
Yesterday is Tomorrowby Alex CroghLying yesterday is lost trust tomorrow.
Februariesby Mary ParkerI touched your skin today,
Connectionby Margaret PopeFront knows back;
Juggernaughtby Gerrit EgnewWind drives a knife
Duplicityby Bennet RoperDespair remembers hope.
Hope filled all he was:
Despair understands.
A Blunderby Gerrit EgnewFailure is an opportunity:
Doughy Circles of Joyby Danny KaiserOne Sunday morning, the day after a soccer game near Boise, my mom, my friends Ray and JT, and I were hungry. Ray wanted to eat at IHOP, and we almost went, but my mom had an epiphany: "Lets's go to the Co-op and get bagels," she said. We cheered. The four of us sped down Union Street and pulled into the Co-op parking lot. We flooded into the Co-op and hurried towards the bakery section. Examining the bagel selection, our senses were assailed by the delicious smell of myriad breads and pastries, redolent of heaven. Intoxicating fragrances permeated our nostrils and manipulated our thoughts. Each of us was entranced by the time we each reached a decision. When all the bagels had finally been purchased, we headed towards the shaded porch area. We devoured our bagels in relative silence. I had a delicious combination of cinnamon-sugar and the irresistibly chewy plain bagel, which should be appreciated merely for its plain, doughy taste and aforementioned chewiness. The cinnamon sugar bagel is very special, sweeter than a doughnut yet preserving the irresistible texture synonymous with the word bagel. Partially because of hunger, but mostly because of the quality of the bagels, these bagels were the best that we had ever tasted. We left the Co-op in a dazed state, dreaming of the next time that we could immerse our tastebuds in wonderful bagels. Rock Starby Bennet RoperHe feels alone, smothered.
Triumphby Margaret PopeAs I raise my hand, images of
Boating in Yumaby Abbey HolsmanThe Colorado River in Yuma, Arizona, is my fun away from home. Boating, playing on the sand bar, and being in a stress-free environment are my favorite parts about the Colorado River. All the smells, feelings, and thoughts that happen on the river seem to stay there. I love boating on the Colorado river. Not only is it fun, it can be relaxing or thrilling. My boat was custom-made by Ultra Boating, as were most of the boats on the river. After we launch our boat we go off and look for a sand bar to hang out on, or go up river so we can kneeboard and go tubing. Sometimes we race with our friends, but only when there are not too many people around. Other times we relax and let our boat float while we get into the water to swim. The first jump into the cold water is very thrilling and sends goose bumps down my whole body. When we finally anchor at a sand bar, our coolers, chairs, and canopy come off our boat and are placed on the sand. I take a deep breath and smell the fresh air, sand and water as the wind blows through my hair. When we are anchored on a sand bar, there is so much to do. We bury each other, make sand castles, play volleyball and lay out in the sand trying not to get it everywhere! It's a different world for me when I'm on the river. All of the stresses of being in the city or even a small town evaporate when my family and I go to Yuma. The feeling of the sand in between my fingers and toes helps me relax. Lying on the hot sand in the sun makes jumping into the river's cold water even more fun. When we are on the river, there aren't any obligations or schedules we need to follow. We don't need to be doing much to be happy, because it's just nice to get away from our regular life. Being on the Colorado River is almost like having a new, different life. Blank Pagesby Bennet RoperAutumn leaves cling to barren limbs:
Fluffy Crystalsby Danny KaiserWhen entering the bowl, our skis do float
Havenby Mary ParkerWe named it Skull Dock because of the abnormal fungus we found growing on the underside, which, when viewed from the correct angle looked like a small, white, grinning skull. Sometimes we would go to Skull Dock together -- you and me and her -- just to think, or to enjoy each other's company. Other times we'd simply sit there, staring at the water, wishing we had something to do in this tiny town. Almost every time we left, we were soaked from having jumped in the lake just because we could. There were never any boats tied to Skull Dock, which made me wonder why it was there. Perhaps the workers who built it knew people like us would view the dock as some sort of haven, a place where we could escape the world for a couple of hours. There was something about the way the sun filtered through water under the dock and made everything so blue. It was like we had our own private fairyland when sunset came. The shadows made all the colors twice as noticeable and four times as soft. Skull Dock was there to heal the minds of those who pushed themselves too hard at school or at work. It provided writers like us with inspiration for poetry, and artists with landscapes for painting. It is even now waiting to help someone find his true purpose or unlock her higher potential. It's there for all of us. Solitudeby Mary ParkerAtop the hill stands an old ginkgo tree,
The Attemptby Gerrit Egnew"Come on. I guarantee the first time you'll have a blast. Go get your kayak." Yeah, right. "Fine," I say, as I head back towards the beach. I ruminate on my dad's words as I walk towards my kayak. There is no way I can surf that wave just upriver. Sure, my dad says it's not being pushy, but that is a BIG wave. At least for a kayaker who's just learned to roll like me. There are a couple of really good kayakers surfin' it right now, pulling endos and spinning around. They offer to give me some tips. It's a good opportunity but... Whatever. I've got nothing to lose. "I'm gonna do it," I say to Corey as I get to the beach. "Yeah? I'm staying right here where it's warm." A predictable reply. It's only his third time kayaking. I don my shirt, spray-skirt, and paddle jacket, then grab my helmet and paddle and get into the boat. My spray skirt is wet: easy to get on. "Hey, give me a push off!" Corey obliges, and I paddle up the eddy to the wave train. Why am I doing this again? I get up towards the wave. "Hey dad, you're going to owe me," I splash some water at him. He laughs. "Don't forget your nose plugs." Good idea. "I won't." He sees that I'm a little hesitant to try the wave. "Just go for it," he says. "There's nothing in that rapid but waves, and below is a mile-and-a-half long swimming pool."Liar. What about the entire current heading towards that hole near the other shore? I sigh. "Whatever, wish me luck." As soon as I'm at the top of the eddy, one of the kayakers -- he has a beard, I don't know his name -- paddles up to me. "That one isn't too pushy," he says, referring to the fifth wave. "Just wait 'til Tele gets outta there." Tele is the other guy. At least I know his name. Tele looks over, sees us, and pulls out. He paddles up and says, "Which one you going to do?" "Fifth," I reply. "Sweet. Go for it." Go for it. Hmmm... Not as reassuring as it should be. "Ok." I paddle down the eddy slightly to set up. Paddling for the wave, angling my boat upstream, angled too far downstream, my boat catches the current. CRASH! I'm underwater. I start setting up my roll. I'm so intent on rolling up that it takes me a few seconds to realize I hadn't put on my nose plugs. Damn Damn Damn! I won't have time for a second attempt. I bring my paddle across, hip-snap, and roll up. Before I even have time to realize I'm up, a wave crashes on me. I'm back under. Ahhh! Didn't get a breath! I start a second roll, realize I'm out of air, and pull my skirt. I come up and grab my paddle right away. Then I throw an arm over my boat. I start to swim for the beach. Too slow, too slow! Tele and the bearded guy are paddling down towards me. Once there, Tele hooks a tow line to my boat. The bearded one yells: "Grab my boat! Other shore!" I release my kayak and grab the back of his. He drags me over and deposits me on the rocks. Oh, this'll be fun. I drag my boat up on the rocks and laboriously begin emptying out the water. Hard to think, I'm so cold... With shuddering hands, I turn the boat over. Sliding it into the water, I start to get in. It wobbles and I almost fall out. Not even bothering with my spray-skirt, I grab the paddle clumsily. Cold. Cold. Gaah I'm COLD! I ferry across to the beach. Corey is chuckling a bit. "That was ridiculous," I exclaim through chattering teeth. "Sure looked it," he comments. "Well then why don't you try?" "Yeah, right. Maybe next year." I silently agree as I lie down on the warm sand. Maybe next year. The Cemetery on a Hillby Mary ParkerThe frost came early this year,
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Obliviousby Mary ParkerKnowledge fondly remembers ignorance,
Ignorance aches longingly for knowledge --
Spring Sunby Gerrit EgnewSoft southern wind whistles
Self-Forgivenessby Bennet RoperThe greatest challenge I have ever faced is learning to forgive myself. My parents are divorced; because of this, I do not see my mom as often as we both would like. Often when she betrays my trust I try to shield her, but I have to realize I am also shielding myself. This realization has made me grow and change, and notice things about myself and about the people around me. I try to shield my mom from the pain she inflicts upon me. If she breaks a promise to me, my first reaction is to blame myself. I think that maybe if I loved her more the incident could have been avoided, saving me the unwanted pain. I shield her from my hurtful accusations since I know it will hurt her more if I show my pain. I do not lay the blame where it belongs. By not yelling and screaming and using other ways to express my emotions, I never allow my mom to see a single tear. I bury the deep emotions, almost managing to ignore them. Forgiveness is easy. My forgiveness shields my mom from the pain she causes, but I am also hiding behind a shield. By not totally acknowledging the damage, I am able to hide. Then I dread the moment when it will inevitably happen again. I blame myself, neglecting to explain to her my true feelings. Self-forgiveness is so hard for me: if I come out and explain the hard feelings, I will have to admit to myself the depth of them. I have grown personally by realizing how events around me affect the thoughts of others, and my own dreams. By beginning to understand that the events that affect me are not my fault, I can begin to heal myself. My mom's problem creates the wall between us, not my helplessness. I have also realized that I can consult with others who have had similar feelings and begin to understand that I am not the only one to have them. Talking with my brother is normally an entirely repulsive idea to me, but there are times when we are able to be entirely civil. We both have kept a lot inside. I have grown by realizing that it is always better to let the feelings flow through me all the way to my mouth and out, releasing the crushing buildup. It is hard for me to imagine a better feeling than getting rid of guilt by forgiving, and not blaming, myself. Blissby Gerrit EgnewA glistening slope of snow: earthly incarnation of joy.
Morningby Bennet RoperDew lingers on the spider's tiny web
Sonnetby Margaret PopeI hate the way these freaking things should go:
Sonnetby Gerit EgnewLike legos made of many diff'rent things.
Then rise, sophisticated bubble next:
A situation we have encountered.
Are we the middle man, the go between?
Ode to Golfby Alex CroghI wish that I could come to you my friend.
Chrysalisby Mary ParkerCompression pushes in, ubiquitous.
Jailbreakby Bennet RoperFive minutes left.
The Tripby Alex CroghOne July morning, I woke up early to go to Lake Placid. My mom, brother, and I went to the Boise Airport. As we were heading to Boise we were all excited and nervous. When we arrived at the airport we went to get our tickets and while we were doing that we met my coach. My mother and she talked to each other while I looked around, seeing different kinds of people. Next, we headed toward the security area and put our carryon bags to be checked at a scanner. I have never been through a scanner. It was kind of scary because I was not sure if I had remembered to take everything off myself, and did not want to be searched. When I walked right by, it was less scary than I had expected. The airport was very loud and rushed. When we were waiting to board our plane we met my partner, Jacqueline, and her mom. The six of us waited for about an hour before we could board the plane. I looked nervously around to see if I really wanted to go on the plane. The last time I was on a plane was when I was six-and-a-half when weleft from Russia to come to America. When I was walking into the plane, I was shocked at how small it was but it was not really that small. The plane that we flew on to America was lot bigger than this plane. Everyone sat together but I was the unlucky one and had to sit with a seatmate. I was not very happy but I had to live with it. The plane started up and I wished I could have sat by the window but the man wanted it so I let him. I had to lean out to be able to see a small part of the window. We went on the runway and I didn't know if I was ready but I had to be ready. We took off and my stomach went down and I felt a little dizzy but not sick. Close one. I looked down on Boise, knowing I wouldn't see it for a week. When we were in the air, I was waiting until we could listen to our Ipod's or use computers. We were flying for about five minutes and I was scared that the plane might stop and drop directly toward Earth. I was always holding onto the seat to make sure I was secure. Later during the flight, we could get refreshments. I could only get
a small cup of coke because they thought I was too young to have a can. The man next to me got a can and I was jealous. He was very fat and small. He was a kind person as I thought. He slept most of the time and snored so loud I bet the people in the front of the plane could hear. When we were flying, he had to go to the restroom a couple of times. So I had to move and wait till he was done because he had to get into his seat. Getting up was a hard time because I felt like I would fall and tumble toward the nose of the plane.
As death eludes the posse of our thought
Instead of celebrating self alive
No happiness or laughter swells inside
Our consciousness, more than stars in the dark
The sound of a fly buzzing in circles is infuriating. Its buzz is at just the right volume to tork me off. Each fly has to buzz just out of the range of my insanely-swinging windmill-like arms. My fist clenches and my eye twitches as I desperately try to concentrate. All this effort is in vain. I leave the room; at least I can hit my brother. Another victory for the fly.
Naturally, I hate lawnmowers for the exercise, the smell, and the general mess they make, but worst of all is the awful noise. That nasal chainsaw noise is intolerable. While I am working in class, usually on a test, that man has to get on his stupid riding lawnmower and grind up the grass. Chugging and grinding, the lawnmower leaves me no choice but to add to the bite marks on my pencil. Glaring down at my paper with more intensity then ever, I grind my lead harder to help myself concentrate. It keeps droning on.
I understand the importance of sirens, but why do they have to be so loud? While I am sitting in my car deftly tuning out the rap music pouring out of the car next to me, the flashy speeding ambulance followed by an understated black police car comes speeding through the intersection. The racket is unbearable. The sound rings through my ears and explodes into dozens of painful fireworks in my head. I look over to see the mom next to me turning to roll her eyes at the wailing kid in the backseat; I feel the same as the kid. Later that night while I am about to fall asleep, the noise breaks through the almost-silent night to my window, as if sent there by my own stressed nerves.
The main reason that these noises bother me is because there is no way to ignore them. When a fly is buzzing there is no possible way to ignore it other than putting my hands over my ears and screaming. The florescent light is incessant and eye-twitchingly annoying. Lawnmower noise is also impossible to tune out, while the noise of a siren is so loud and disruptive that when it suddenly pops out, it makes all thought impossible. I prefer silence to almost any other sound. When I pressed against your belly button,
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